I fell off

The non-smoking wagon that is. I lost it on the trip we took during the 7 hr drive to Minnesota. And then I just kept the habit going. I'm disappointed in myself. I know I won't be able to run as well, especially since I'm so out of practice. I know my blood pressure has probably increased from my non-smoking days. I know I have to get back on this wagon. Sometimes I wonder if I'll be able to just do it, or if it's going to take something drastic. I don't want to have to get sick in order to stop. I want to just STOP. And so we'll try again.